Call Someone Who Cares

by Michelle on January 8, 2013

When you have an adult child who is also an addict, telephone calls are not your friend. They range from the desperate ‘I need money RIGHT NOW’ calls to ‘I’ve been arrested’ calls.

A ringing telephone can still bring tears to my eyes.

Last year at this time, my biggest fear was that my son would die. I felt the best case scenario was that he would go to jail and get clean.

That’s some fucked up shit when your biggest hope is that your child is incarcerated. Happy fucking holidays.

This year? This year is MUCH better.

My son moved out around Thanksgiving and has been doing just fine on his own. He called me a few days ago to ask me if I wanted to go play Bingo with him and his girlfriend.


I have no idea why THAT particular call gave me more comfort than anything else that has happened in his life over the past year. The NA meetings didn’t give me as much comfort. The full time job didn’t give me as much comfort.

I just can’t reconcile my son the junkie with my son the Bingo player. They are truly two different people.

My way of responding, of course, was to ask him when he turned into an 80 year old woman. This is how we show affection in my family. We hang shit on each other.

I’m happy that he’s settling into his adult life. I’m thrilled he invited me to spend an evening with him and his girlfriend. They are even going to make me dinner.

I guess this means I’m going to play Bingo this week. Wish me luck, I could use the cash.

Maybe I can stop hating my phone so much now.




{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }

Carin January 8, 2013 at 10:57 pm

Glad to read your boy is doing well.


Ragemichelle January 8, 2013 at 11:31 pm

Thank you so much. It’s been a long long time since I’ve felt this calm…


Tonyne @unlikelytonyne January 9, 2013 at 1:47 pm

This post makes me happy.


Michelle January 9, 2013 at 2:24 pm

me too!! We’re going tomorrow night. I can’t wait.


Jackie [Hot at Home] January 9, 2013 at 3:04 pm

YAY!! :-)


Michelle January 9, 2013 at 3:36 pm

Yeah..YAY!!! I feel so much better right now. Still wary…but it’s loads better.


Deb January 10, 2013 at 2:31 am

Michelle, I LOVED reading this post! Finally a genuine smile in your “voice” when posting about your son! :D

Now go win those old ladies’ cash! haha


Ragemichelle January 10, 2013 at 3:31 pm

Thank you..I love these comments..they make me all warm and fuzzy..and possibly cheery.


Leanne January 10, 2013 at 9:13 am

So glad to hear your son is doing so much better. I can’t imagine how hard it has been for you but I can imagine how elated you must be to go to Bingo with him :) . I hope he continues on the road to a healthy happy lifetime.


Ragemichelle January 10, 2013 at 3:32 pm

It’s been hard..but I have to take what I can from it..and what I have gained is strength..and perhaps an ulcer.


Krysten Siba Bishop (@darwinianfail) January 10, 2013 at 9:24 am

LOVE THIS POST!! So happy to read this today. YAY BINGO!


Ragemichelle January 10, 2013 at 3:33 pm

Thank you so much!!! I was so happy to write it.

He still has a long road..but he’s doing well. Looking forward to heading over to his place in a few hours. :)


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